TWILIGHT! AHHH! LOVE

Omg, I love these books? Anyone else read them.

I mean everyone talks about wanting to find their own Edward Cullen, but I love Jacob more, he's just so,, realistic. In terms of their relationship, I mean. 

& though I wasn't really expecting Jake to imprint on Rennesme, but ya know.. W/E.

I just want my sweet Jacob to be happy.

**howl**

Heres a funny video for all you on team werewolf (cough, cough OK, shapeshifter)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5z4856hWJow

WRITE ANYTHING YOU WANT ON COMMENTS PEOPLE....

LET THE BATTLES BEGIN!

PS-Here is a really bomb site: http://twilightgurl.com

belyeacourtney@hotmail.com

Its been a while

Hiya!

I know, know... long time no post. Life has been so crazy busy lately.
I have a question for all my readers. How do keep yourself from being stressed when things get hectic?

Peace, Xo

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Peace Out Blog fans ;)

The Way Things Used To Be

Sometimes I wish more than anything I could go back. One more day to change something, to enjoy a moment, to say goodbye, to go back. I've been finding myself wishing I could change the past.
It hurts so much that people know who I was. They judge me, I'm still the same in their eyes.
If i could see one person simply breathing, I would feel more whole. More complete.
I guess it just goes to show that we must live in the moment. I've learned that the hard way.
My everything is buried in the ground. Slipped away...
If you had just ONE more day with a lost loved one or ONE day to change your past, what would you do instead? How do you think you've learned from these experiences?

<3

Nobody Is Perfect

I loathe their fakeness. I hate their lies, the pretending. The illusion of perfection. Seriously, it disgusts me.
Who I am I talking about? Celebrities, pop idols, so called perfect people, models, movie stars, etc.
I don't read magazines anymore... we pay money to be told how to dress, how to act, what to eat, how to do our hair. It's like they are trying to tell us who we SHOULD be.
I'm tired of it all. All the stupid, unrealistic idealism. Something most of us can never be.
I'm sick of looking in the mirror and wishing to be something "better".
I bet all these stupid, immature Hollywood beauties are ugly and lonely inside.
My beauty is something more than big boobs and flowing blond hair. My beauty is undefined, much deeper than the surface that make-up tries to hide.
I am unique. I am different and I'm not afraid to be who I am!
Admit it, you know you are 10000 times more gorgeous than many airbrushed Barbie Doll. Because you are...well...YOU!

HA, TAKE THAT BEAUTY INDUSTRY!

<3

Letter

Here's something I wrote when I was depressed:

Dear God,

Why am I here existing?
Doing nothing but taking up space
It is sad and pathetic.
Even you don't understand what I am going through.
Please take me away from the hurt and pain.
Before it's too late.
Don't let me take matters into my own hands.
I know you don't listen.
When I'm down on my knees.
But you don't know what it's like.
To be unloved, abused, depressed and misunderstood.

Do you hear the screaming

The words like silver daggers

Hurting me inside
You haven't felt real misery like this.
Or numbness inside.
Because you are all mighty.
And I am your mistake.
A flaw in your perfect world.
I am sorry I ruined.
The plans that you had.
For the world, for destiny.
God I failed you...
By being myself.
By being your mistake.
But you always failed me.
By never being there.
Why do you make my life...
So cruel and unfair?

Happy Valentines Day

I forget to say Happy Valentines Day to anyone reading this blog.
It's commercialized a lot, don't you think?
Than again, maybe it will mean something to me when a find true love. ;)

Happy Valentines Day <3