Confessions Of A Teenage Nobody

TWILIGHT! AHHH! LOVE

2008-11-30T03:40:00.000-08:00

Omg, I love these books? Anyone else read them.

I mean everyone talks about wanting to find their own Edward Cullen, but I love Jacob more, he's just so,, realistic. In terms of their relationship, I mean.

& though I wasn't really expecting Jake to imprint on Rennesme, but ya know.. W/E.

I just want my sweet Jacob to be happy.

**howl**

Heres a funny video for all you on team werewolf (cough, cough OK, shapeshifter)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5z4856hWJow

WRITE ANYTHING YOU WANT ON COMMENTS PEOPLE....

LET THE BATTLES BEGIN!

PS-Here is a really bomb site: http://twilightgurl.com

belyeacourtney@hotmail.com

Its been a while

2008-11-23T10:31:00.000-08:00

Hiya!

I know, know... long time no post. Life has been so crazy busy lately.
I have a question for all my readers. How do keep yourself from being stressed when things get hectic?

Peace, Xo

Check It Out!

2008-03-03T14:00:00.000-08:00

Has anyone else read In Their Shoes: Extraordinary Women Describe Their Amazing Careers by Deborah Reber? I just picked up a copy yesterday at the book store. I give it 5 stars & definitely recommend it!
www.deborahreber.com
www.smartgirlsknow.com

Also, check this out & get involved in the dove sleep over: www.dovesleepover.ca

Peace Out Blog fans ;)

The Way Things Used To Be

2008-03-01T16:03:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I wish more than anything I could go back. One more day to change something, to enjoy a moment, to say goodbye, to go back. I've been finding myself wishing I could change the past.
It hurts so much that people know who I was. They judge me, I'm still the same in their eyes.
If i could see one person simply breathing, I would feel more whole. More complete.
I guess it just goes to show that we must live in the moment. I've learned that the hard way.
My everything is buried in the ground. Slipped away...
If you had just ONE more day with a lost loved one or ONE day to change your past, what would you do instead? How do you think you've learned from these experiences?

<3

Nobody Is Perfect

2008-02-26T06:25:00.001-08:00

I loathe their fakeness. I hate their lies, the pretending. The illusion of perfection. Seriously, it disgusts me.
Who I am I talking about? Celebrities, pop idols, so called perfect people, models, movie stars, etc.
I don't read magazines anymore... we pay money to be told how to dress, how to act, what to eat, how to do our hair. It's like they are trying to tell us who we SHOULD be.
I'm tired of it all. All the stupid, unrealistic idealism. Something most of us can never be.
I'm sick of looking in the mirror and wishing to be something "better".
I bet all these stupid, immature Hollywood beauties are ugly and lonely inside.
My beauty is something more than big boobs and flowing blond hair. My beauty is undefined, much deeper than the surface that make-up tries to hide.
I am unique. I am different and I'm not afraid to be who I am!
Admit it, you know you are 10000 times more gorgeous than many airbrushed Barbie Doll. Because you are...well...YOU!

HA, TAKE THAT BEAUTY INDUSTRY!

<3

Letter

2008-02-16T05:38:00.000-08:00

Here's something I wrote when I was depressed:

Dear God,

Why am I here existing?
Doing nothing but taking up space
It is sad and pathetic.
Even you don't understand what I am going through.
Please take me away from the hurt and pain.
Before it's too late.
Don't let me take matters into my own hands.
I know you don't listen.
When I'm down on my knees.
But you don't know what it's like.
To be unloved, abused, depressed and misunderstood.

Do you hear the screaming

The words like silver daggers

Hurting me inside
You haven't felt real misery like this.
Or numbness inside.
Because you are all mighty.
And I am your mistake.
A flaw in your perfect world.
I am sorry I ruined.
The plans that you had.
For the world, for destiny.
God I failed you...
By being myself.
By being your mistake.
But you always failed me.
By never being there.
Why do you make my life...
So cruel and unfair?

Happy Valentines Day

2008-02-14T16:52:00.000-08:00

I forget to say Happy Valentines Day to anyone reading this blog.
It's commercialized a lot, don't you think?
Than again, maybe it will mean something to me when a find true love. ;)

Happy Valentines Day <3

My Poem

2008-02-14T13:26:00.000-08:00

Here's a random poem I just wrote on the top of my head:

Fire In My Heart

A fire in my heart

It’s been burning from the start

Foolish things

Must not tear our love apart

I look into your eyes

I am taken by surprise

All the things you do

Much different than I realized

I want to say I miss you

I want to say I care

But our love is not special, it is a lie that we both share.

To All People

2008-02-13T03:35:00.000-08:00

Do you ever feel lonely in a crowd of people?
Do you feel held back from living your life? Or brainwashed by who people think you should be, until you start to feel like you are losing a part of yourself?
If you have... I guess that is just life you are feeling.
I will assure you, whatever problems you are trying to solve or obsicles you are facing, know that there is someone there that cares about you.
Across the street, the ocean, the world there is someone you are connected to... by pain, love, loss and experiences.

My Favorite Quote:
"To the world, you are just one person, but to one person you are the world."

PS- I was thinking about my last post, and I have started a new life list. I guess in a way... it is good to have goals. They live you something to work hard for.

<3

Dear Readers...

2008-02-12T14:17:00.000-08:00

I was just thinking about a newspaper article I read a while back... generally, it was about, "What do you want you obituary to look like?"
I've never really thought about that before, but it reminds me of when my grade 6 teacher made of make a life list. It was a list of all the goals we want to accomplish in our lifetimes.
The thing is, I am not really sure WHAT exactly I want in life. I have goals and everything but none I'm really passionate about. Nothing big or major, it's basically just finishing school and going to university.
To be honest, I've always thought of goals as a chore. Just something that teachers make us do, but now I'm starting to think.
I wasn't really serious when I started my life list. I put dumb things like, "eat two cookies in one bite". Lol, I was a pretty silly kid, eh?
I'll do some thinking and get back to you, hey, maybe you should think about it too!

What do you want your obituary to look like?

<3